Over the past few days, I have been thinking, “Do others really see us for who we really are? Do they see us as our authentic self or do they only see what THEY want to see?” I know over the years I have always tried to be myself and can say that in many situations, I have felt like an actor in the story of my own life. Authenticity is hard and being “our self” in ALL situations can seem impossible. Remember the fairy tale, The Emperor’s New Clothes and the part when the emperor went out with no clothes? Well, that is how I know I feel when those who perceive me in one way then see me as my authentic self. It as if they are seeing me naked. That is because the “costume” I had been wearing for their benefit is no longer there and they are shocked. Not only am I more vulnerable, but they are surprised and not quite sure how to respond. I know I am tired of the costumes and honestly, I would much rather be myself and go out without my costume then to continue playing a role in a story that doesn’t truly reflect who I am.
I find authenticity freeing and liberating and would much rather be my real self. Others will just have to get used to seeing me with no clothes.